Words

Words hurt.

Like shoving a hand down your throat and yanking your heart out then throwing it against a cactus with all your strength and watching it slide down piercing through the spikes one by one and an elephant comes by and tramples over it because a mouse just scurried under its legs and the skin of the remaining ball of dirt has been torn and sheds its tears of red as its thumping beat gradually slows down. Then you pick it up...thinking that you never wanting to put it back into your body again.

That's how much words can hurt.

Two people.

Is it possible...

Two people.
They have always reached out for the other, but the time had come for a separation. Not a separation such that it breaks them apart for eternity. Merely a separation when each individual will come to embrace a new direction in life.

Two people.
Now they are meeting different people, doing different things, learning different ways, living different lives. This is what separation brings. What now becomes of the feeling once felt for each other? The care, the laughter, the friendship, the love.

Two people.
Are two people. Is it possible...that those feelings of the past keep up with the differences in their everyday lives; for those feelings to remain as those feelings? It seems that for some, it can, while for others, it's just too hard. Or maybe those feelings were never what I expected them to be in the first place. And for that, I'm sorry.

But I will never forget.

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Simple ~~~

Why is the mind complicated?
Why can't everything be simple and easy?
Why are there so many whys?

Why is it so hard to have simplicity?
Why is it so hard to have a simple life?
Why is it so hard to have a simple relationship?

And why is it hard for some people to put a smile on their faces?
Living in a world of frowns is much harder than living in smiles.

We are given one chance in life.
So why make this life more difficult than it should be?

There is no need to fake a smile.
If those who love you truly love you, then whether it's a smile or a frown, they will still love you.
For me, a smile is much easier.
I will keep on having this smile...
and simply hope.

Hope to bring smiles to others.

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Not

So sometimes you think you know something or someone, but it turns out that what you thought was the exact opposite from the reality.

Was life meant to be this way?
I guess it's what makes life...life.

Would it have been better to be oblivious?
Possibly...
But now it's too late.
Or is it?
So the reality I thought was reality isn't in fact the actual reality. Then maybe living in a dream would be happier than living in reality.
Just because it's called a dream, doesn't mean it is false. (And I'm not talking about the dreams you get when you're sleeping) Dreams are just a way to enjoy this thing called life.

In a dream there is hope.
Hoping is not just sitting around waiting. Hoping is giving life a chance. Even if reality isn't what I expect, I will accept whatever comes.
And maybe...
Just maybe...
Maybe one day, dreams will turn into reality.

I hope.

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Limitation

People are so easily confined by their emotions.

Sadness;

Hate;

Anger.

Why do these emotions have such a big effect on people?
It changes the way a person looks, thinks and acts.

Don't they realise that...if something has already happened, it cannot be changed. It can only be mended.

These emotions...are ugly.

I say that, but the human nature makes it difficult for me to not feel these ways when I have been hurt by someone or something. Nevertheless, what I should be doing is to shift that ugliness away, and to replace it with acceptance, something that requires both courage and strength. Do I have this courage?

If I don't, could someone lend it to me...to support me...?

If I do, then why should I ever waste my time sulking? Does it feel better?
No. Not for me.

Wouldn't being happy feel a lot better?

Yes. For me.

Joy.

Happiness.

Love.

I choose to hope.

Hoping to cherish these feelings every step of the way.

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8o|

You know what?
VAIO should just go

DIEEEEEEE

like seriously.

I needed to put it out there =D LOL

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Waiting...

The past. Fragments of memory.
The present. Nothing.
The future. Unknown. Waiting...

Waiting for what? Should I be waiting for something...

Perhaps a certain person,
or a certain feeling,
or a certain moment.

Waiting for something special to happen.

Who knows what this "something" is, but I'll be waiting...
Waiting for that certain day to come,
and when it comes, I will know.

I hope.

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Perfection

...is difficult.
Can nothing really be perfect?
I hope not.

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Step One.

A new blog has been made.
It will record my thoughts.

That's all for now =]